Failure To Attract

This is an important question.  Some would say that when you want the Law of Attraction to work, you don’t focus on where you go, you focus on the destination - and they’re probably right.  I just have difficulty letting go.   Not to mention, I have people in my life who are influential to me that honestly think the Secret, and the Law of Attraction in general, is a crock of shit.  When you have people like that, you sometimes don’t know what to think.

I have a trip scheduled in just a few weeks - ticket purchased, hotel reserved, the works - and I’m so excited to go.  All of my close friends will be there, but to be able to go, I need to find/attract a good job very soon.  I’m also still doing my website stuff to generate some extra cash to keep me alive and to fund the activities that keep me my normal level of sanity (I.E. this coming up trip.)

I should be heading to bed; I have a long drive back to Austin tomorrow - I’m in Odessa, Texas and have been since Christmas.  Click to check out the route I’m taking.

Hope you all had a great holiday and that your New Year is wonderful!

-David

After making my last post, I totally forgot to say:

Merry Christmas everyone!  I hope your holiday, whatever you might celebrate, is, was, or will be a good one!

My gift to you is the best Christmas song ever:

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-David

I need a car.

Lately, I’ve been driving my mother’s car everywhere, and I’m sick of it… I need a new car.  In fact, if I could, I would get a new 2008 Honda Civic EX-L (Or Si, I can’t decide, but I honestly can’t wrap my brain around the Law of Attraction bringing me something as big as that - and even then, not knowing how it will happen, if a certain impulse or “inspired” thought will actually lead me to what I want or not is, well, frustrating.

Maybe my first step would be to attract the well paying job first?

Until next time,
David

I seem to be writing these things in the early, early hours of the morning, don’t I?

As I’ve been setting this blog up over the past 24 hours or so,  I’ve discovered an amazing resource.  If you have a blog, or are thinking about setting up a blog, you need to try using this service.  It’s called FeedBurner, and apparently it helps you promote your blog, podcasts, etc.  It’s very web 2.0, and it does a ton of awesome things, like give you a dynamic signature for your email programs, like Outlook, that has a link to whatever your latest blog post is.

The best part is, it’s apparently totally free.  I’ve been playing with it since I set the blog up last night, and I haven’t encountered anything asking for money or to set up anything for billing, which is surprising for all that it does.

If you email me at david@davidpettit.org,  I’ll send you a response and you’ll get to see what I mean.

Okay, fair warning!  I’m the kind of guy who has a lot to say, and has the tendency to ramble.  Some would say the “Rants” category you see on the side would be redundant.  If you aren’t the type who wants to follow that kind of thought flow, stop reading now.  You have been warned!

I’ve had trouble successfully attracting what I want to me in my life for some time now.  Part of that, I know, is that I am unclear about many things - and part of that comes from being a 21 year old male, I’m sure.

I think, to get an idea about where I’m coming from, let me give you some background.

I’ve lived somewhat close (within a few hours) of Austin for my whole life, and for someone with the open mind I have, that’s the best place in Texas to be.

Growing up, I had several issues that kept bugging me and making my life miserable,  so when I was 16 I searched out my first therapist.  I lucked out - my family doctor, a man I had known since I was 8 or 9, suggested someone he thought I would click with.  So, I made an appointment and that started one of the most profound times of my life.  For two years, Siri helped me discover parts of myself I had no idea had existed, and helped me begin the journey to find a true acceptance and love of myself for who I am.  She helped me see so many things, and enriched my life in so many ways.  I know that without her initial help, I would not be anywhere close to the man I am today.

And so, a few years after, my stepdad Pat introduces me to a book of a friend of his - Attractor Factor, by Joe Vitale.  Of course, typically, I set it down and didn’t touch it for another year or year and a half… but when I did pick it up that day, I couldn’t put it down.  What Joe had to say about the universe resonated with me.  I had been trying to put words to concepts I had in my head for years - and he spelled them out in front of me, along with a whole other aspect - the Law of Attraction.

Of course, this seemed completely impossible, right?  A Law of the Universe that basically gives you whatever you want, as long as you have the right mindset?  It’s very much more complicated than that, obviously, but you get the idea.  It seemed impossible!

And yet people were doing it.

So, since that day, I’ve been trying to better myself, get clear about what I want, and I’ve found some pretty inspiring and amazing people out there who have helped me in many, many ways.  One of these people, a Nelson Duffle, just recently showed me a passion of mine that should have been obvious:  Photography.  Nelson has come to the Unseminar 2 and 4, and at 4 he had brought a camera that he had recently acquired - a Nikon D80 with an 18-135mm lens.  The strangest thing about this was that the very same camera was the camera of my dreams.  I’d wanted one of those since I played with Pat’s old D50 before he upgraded.

So, he let me take control of the camera, and I snapped a few shots, and when Nelson checked them out, he was in awe.  Said that I had an eye for composition, that I had talent.

Wait, what?

It was hard for me to swallow at first - that I was good at something beyond talking to people and computers, but a little while later that day, I came to accept it… which has led me to creating my plan.

Currently, what I want to do is get a normal 9 - 5 job that pays decently while I figure out if photography is just a hobby, or if Nelson’s claim has any substance, and that I can possibly get a job doing that.

So, following that plan, I’ve been applying for jobs everywhere, trying to attract one to me that I liked - and I did.  The company was IntegReview here in Austin, and the job would have been a nice chunk of income for a single male of 21 years, with lots of room to grow.  I would have been *perfect* for the job.

I found out yesterday afternoon that I was not accepted for the position.

Instead of calling me like the manager-type had said she would, she sent me a very impersonal canned email response - which I understand is typical, but I find it stupid.  Maybe I’m still a little bitter about it.

I sometimes wonder… what’s keeping me from getting a job?  Obviously something inside, but I can’t yet identify it.  Some have suggested that it’s because I’m meant to do something else.

I’m not sure.  I’ll keep you updated.