Worth and Motivation

Last post, I mentioned my trip to Florida.

All in all, it was a really great trip - got to see some people who I care very much for, who I can trust with anything and can always go to for support. Some of those gems you meet in life.

There was one person in particular, though, that I have felt certain… things… for, for quite a while. He’s an amazing person, and has more going for him with incredible opportunities ahead of him. This is a complete understatement, but if I started talking about him I probably would have trouble stopping!

His father is a high ranking administrator for a research facility, and they have a beautiful big house in an expensive neighborhood in Tampa. When I visited him, I got to meet his parents and see his house, and I realized exactly how well he was provided for.

And I’m not going to lie, after seeing everything he’s got going for him, I started to re-evaluated my worthiness for him.

It’s classic (maybe using different pronouns) - guy raised in a household with little money falls for guy raised in a household with a lot of money, and looks to the material to determine worth. It’s stupid, it’s silly, it’s something one should not get mired up in at all…

But in this instance, it’s a good thing.

Ever since that visit, I’ve felt highly motivated to better myself in many ways. Physically, mentally, emotionally, financially. It’s the external motivation I talked about before, and I hope that it translates into a more internal motivation to better myself, instead of wanting to do it to feel worthy for someone that I know that the word “worth” doesn’t even enter any equation between us.

The thing about it though, is that improving myself externally will also align myself internally, so that I wont even think about self worth - it’ll be apparent to me.

Luckily, I’ve come up with some really good ideas over the past few days and have purchased some killer domains, and already have something in the works…

I’ll post about that in a second.

I still find myself amazed at the kind of transformation I’ve taken in the past week. I’ve purchased more domains, come up with several ideas, and am actually following through with them. That’s a huge deal to me! And I’m still going strong.

So what I have to say to anyone out there reading this who lacks motivation to reach their goals… Just act. Move on it and something will happen to help move you in the right direction - it’s what happened to me.

-David